Showing posts with label Recovery. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Recovery. Show all posts

Friday, July 11, 2008

Amazed and Humbled!

Yesterday was an amazing day! I had the opportunity to get up at 5:00AM in order to attend one of our Heritage Church small groups that has men as it's focus. What an amazing experience! Men sharing their hearts and fully committed to the Mission of our Church. The openness and the honesty was incredible. Then last night, just as an exclamation point finalizes a sentence that is pregnant with vocative excitement! The Heritage Church Community Bible Study was incredible. At the end of the evening people were receiving prayer as the Holy Spirit after the expository teaching was dealing with individuals concerning the breaking of their shame! Today, on my Journey I am both Amazed and humbled. I am amazed how God orchestrates our foot steps in which we have divine appointments that impact our lives to be shaped more into the image of Jesus Christ! I am also humbled that even in the areas of my greatest struggle he is my "champion" who is always about me moving toward Him and not becoming stuck. I am convinced that there is no recovery outside of the cross.

Last night I finished up the teaching with Paul's definition of a "Spiritual Person." The key verse is Galatians 6:1 "Brethren, even if a man is caught up in any trespass, you who are spiritual, restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness, each one looking to yourself, lest you too be tempted." The word for trespass is for those who lapse into sin. Paul is specifically speaking to believers who stumble into sin. The word for spiritual is speaking to those who are spiritually mature and have been endowed with the Holy Spirit. The verb to restore is the same word in Ephesians 4 that is used to denote"the equipping of the saints for the work of the ministry." This word is used to describe the mending of a broken bone or the mending of fishing nets. Spiritual people restore those who in the midst of their struggle stumble into sin. They are not given to a pride that allows them to attack those who struggle because of their own sense of shame.

I closed the evening with encouraging people who may be struggling to embrace the cross as the very wisdom of God. Who may still be very critical in their spirit, bringing accusation against their brothers and sisters to consider their ways. just as the scripture states that "No weapon formed against us will prosper." If we become a weapon formed against someone else we will not prosper. The lack of humility in one area of our lives will set us up to give into temptation somewhere else in our lives. Busybodies do not want to take the time to reflect because then they will have to look at their own undoneness. Reflection is a gift of God that one can use to allow the Holy Spirit to speak to them in a gentle way of revealing the brokenness in one's heart!

I close with this short poem that i wrote while in reflection;

"Oh Lord, I have hurt, and my bitterness daily grows,
It is like a poison that infects not just me but others that I know.
I am so afraid to stop my activity because of what is in my heart is so very ugly,
So I criticize my brothers and sisters so that I do not have to reflect and see the brokenness that is alive and well in me!
In my heart I replaced my pain with pride so that I can walk the easy road and live a lie,
I now understand that underneath my root of bitterness is a sea of sin;
What is amazing is that I am Born Again!
I know that one day I will hit a wall and I will face the crash of my own fall,
If I am judged by what I have done to them,
than O God! I must run and embrace your Cross right now once again!
Amazed Because His Grace is powerful enough to transform me. Humbled because at times my pride chooses an ungrace path and He still pursues me!

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Let the Journey Begin!

Let the Journey Begin!

I have been on this Journey for a while but I thought it was time to record some of my daily thoughts as I daily encounter the Cross. I like many people often times think of the Crucifixion as a past event but really it is a daily occurrence. John Piper calls it a daily execution to those things that need to die in us. Please do not interpret this blog as some thoughts of deep depression or a spiritual melancholy that some how marks one as being more spiritual the blue one may feel. A resounding "NO!" I have found that some of the most richest deepest moments of joy has been after I have been cut once again by the cross. People use so many different terms to define this journey "recovery" "healing" and all these are good but not complete enough for me. The Cross is a wonderful reminder to me how I must daily seek to once again against all human pride that i am not self-sufficient and I am in need of my Savior to engage my heart once again. Self-will is not good enough to help me overcome but rather it is only by the power of Jesus Christ that i can once again take another step forward. Often times it is me failing forward but nonetheless He is with me.

Here is a thought I had today. Grace is the permission to be fully human! God created me and is not shocked by my human frailty.

So, Let the Journey Begin!